Love
Sigh… Love… What is it? Well I am sure if you were to ask a child what it was their answer would be simplistic in reasoning, maybe saying that love is letting me play with a toy. Then of course the bibical definition of love… ” For God so loved the World…” Love has been and can be defined in many different ways. Love is something we all search for. Some of us have found. We look for that person that we can spend the rest of our lives with. The person who will make our heart feel like it never has.Some people spend their whole lives searching for this love, some claim they have found it, yet others claim it doesnt exist. How can this be? Me?Well the longing I have for love is so great I know it exists. I know she is out there and is feeling the same things inside of her heart that I am feeling. People tell you to be patient and stop thinking about it…HA! Is this possible? We are surrounded by reminders of love and marriage everyday… On tv, in our friends lives, in the bible. The word MARRIAGE is lingering in front of us as if to say only a select few can have me, and your not it! As the days and weeks and years go by I wonder what is it I have to do? Rob a bank so I am rich? Na I do have a good job, and my head on straight. But what do I do besides sit here and write how I cant find it.I will say the worst part is I do like someone, and have for some time, however I am nothing but a mere vapor to her… actually i am friends with her but I wanted to use that line. She treats me like a good friend, her looks of frendship at me are retured with looks of hopefulless at her. I see her and nothing else matters, what a cliche, but its true.I could be mad, or sad, and i see her and nothing matters. I sit waiting, waiting for that signal, that sign, that one word or look that says.. ” Yes Karl you may enter” I wait and wonder if what i am waiting for is pointless…Then i think well this person is worth waiting for… working thru… That all the sadness i felt of not being able to be with her would be washed away in seconds and forgotten about forever… What woman can have this power… what is it about her? About the way she smiles? Or laughs? Or calls you that she can have complete control over your life. Is it love? Not recipricated love, but love none the less. As I sit here I wonder if there is someone out there thinking the same thing? If her.. with her angel like qualities is there searching for the same thing… If what she is looking for is me? When will I know….
Women are evil, and expensive. Unfortunately, they are also soft, warm, and pleasantly scented. So in the end, I guess it’s kind of a toss-up.
“soft, warm and pleasantly scented” – ah that just made me laugh so hard. I’m not sure how I feel at being described like that in the same sentence that refers to my gender as evil and expensive. I’m the one who thinks diamonds are overrated after all…
Anyway…Hang in there Karl…it’s cliche…but if you are submitted to doing God’s will, then things will fall into place in his time. (and I’m commenting from Romania…how sweet is that??)